The Consequences of Change
Have you ever thought you knew someone only to see them after a period of absence and realize you don't know them at all anymore? How is it that people can change so drastically from what you thought was always so inherently "them"? And not a good change either. It makes me sad. Sometimes I just want to march up to them, give them a hug, and then look them straight in the eye and ask what happened? It feels like I've seen it so many times with so many different people. How do we lose ourselves so easily? I wish I could just tell them everything is going to be ok, but I can't tell them that for sure. They have to make that decision on their own.
Meanwhile, I've decided that I have not been doing all that great lately and I can be better. After finishing EFY everything I do seems so unfulfilling. Pulling books for patrons just doesn't quite give me those warm fuzzies inside that I got so used to during those weeks. But, that's no one's fault besides my own. I am the one who decides what to take away from my situation. So this is me, putting on a new attitude and getting over myself.