A Little Perspective

Monday, April 27, 2009

Home?

I am home...I think. I didn't realize just how much Jerusalem felt like home until I left it. Some days I wake up and wonder if it was all a dream. I miss it alot. But there are things to move forward with here, so I'll suck it up and quit trying to fall back asleep.

Today I re-packed my whole life and determined what I could and couldn't live without. I have always prided myself on ability to throw stuff away, but as the years go on I grow more prone to sentimental objects. Why do we have to have so many things? I get tired of it all, and yet I continue to drag them around with me. What I really need to come to grips with is the fact that I simply won't be able to remember everything, and no matter how many things I take with me, there will still be forgotten pieces somewhere. I hate forgetting. I hope heaven is full of everything I forget.

Now that I'm back to normal life, I'm back to my old habits of planning light years ahead (and then sitting back and watching it all go out the window) and figuring out what I'm doing with my life. I've reverted back to the plan of applying for the teaching program. I figure I've got nothing to lose, so I might as well see if I can get in. Plans for another study abroad are already being dreamed up as I type, but I don't see it coming to fruition. Besides, I don't know that anything could top Jerusalem. Gah I miss it. Alot.

3 Comments:

Blogger Lisa said...

Did you know that I stalk your real blog too? :)

Sometimes I wonder if we are the same person! This sounds just like me! I miss you tons and I'll see you soon!

April 28, 2009 at 6:31 AM  
Blogger Lauren said...

I go through the same thing after I come home from anywhere. I cried for like three days after I came home from my Paris study abroad. It feel weird, but you'll sink into normal life again. You'll look at your pictures more often than you'll like to admit though.

April 28, 2009 at 10:32 AM  
Blogger Megan Settles said...

Even though you miss it so much I am so happy you are back!!! I missed you and Froyo/Yozone...which ever one of those ones we always went to! haha.

April 29, 2009 at 10:10 AM  

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