A Little Perspective

Monday, September 28, 2009

The Convenience Friend

I sincerely apologize for the amount of rant-blogs lately...I guess it's just been a rough few weeks. But I promise this will be the last one for awhile.

Am I the only one who is constantly plagued by convenience friends? Those people who think that it's okay to call you up whenever they have nothing else to do or if they need a favor. They don't make you a priority at all and heaven forbid if you ask them for a favor that doesn't work with their schedule. What nerve I have to ask for some help when I have an actual emergency. I'm not one of those people who asks for help normally. I don't like to burden people with things and sometimes it's just easier to depend on yourself. However, I always try to support a friend in need when I know it's something important to them. Don't I deserve the same treatment? Apparently not. Just stick me right there on the bottom of the list next to deep cleaning the bathrooms. I don't have needs, so it's cool. Just whenever you get around to it, let me know and I'll be sure to show infinite gratitude when you're finally around to show some semblance of support even though you've made it obvious there are other more pressing things you'd rather be doing. I sure appreciate it.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Sounds Like a Personal Problem

Is it just me or does anyone else have trouble acting like a normal human being around the person they like? I always end up pulling my foot out of my mouth and then cursing the day I ever opened my mouth in the first place. What induces me to believe that if I use words it will come out in my favor? Bah. If only taping my own mouth shut was socially acceptable.

On a completely different topic, I am ready to graduate. I am ready to be done with college, move away, and get on with my life. Not to say that it'll be anything productive, but at least I'll be going somewhere. Somewhere not here. I swear the only thing constant in my life is the desire to run away. I keep thinking just around the next turn I'll be content, just one more move and I'll finally find that happy little sunset. Where is my sunset?!?! I just keep watching everyone else find theirs instead.

I hate my compulsive tendencies to compare everything around me...strengths, weaknesses, successes, failures. Stupid. Just stop. Nothing good EVER comes of it. And, I'm tired of everyone asking me what to do. I can't even figure out what the heck I'm doing with my own life, so why on earth are you asking me? Don't satisfy my vanity and pretend like my advice is worth something because let's be honest, it's not. So quit asking. I can barely stand being accountable for my own rotten choices, don't weigh me down with yours.

Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest. The end.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Two Truths & a Lie

So I've decided to play a little game. It's not very original, but since I'm tired and I need to blog about something it'll do...

1) it took me four months to realize i liked someone...alot
it took me seven years to get over someone
it took me 22 years before i kissed someone

2) i never lie
i am a liar
i hate to lie

3) i like to run away from my problems
i like to create problems
i like to ignore my problems

4) i do stupid things sometimes
i do stupid things ALL the time
i do stupid things that i hate doing

5) my life is a mess
my life has always been a mess
my life will always be a mess

Ok so I realize this sounds like a real downer, but somedays you just have to say it like it is... I promise I'll get over it. Sooner...haha...otherwise it'd be later.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Back in the Saddle

Alrighty then! Now that school has finally reconvened...I can get back to blogging! Because as we all know, I only blog when I have homework to avoid. Luckily, there is no end of homework, reading, or studying in sight, so hello blogspot! Anywho, this past week less than ideal as far as productivity goes. Who thought it was a good idea to start school, then give us a 3-day weekend to tease us with how great summer was, and then force us back into piles of school work? Cruel. Despite this, I made the most of my weekend by floating the provo river (which by the way was a first for me), watching a really cheesy 80's movie (i only really watched it for the sweet 80's jams), going to Jeru parties (always a good use of my time), watching football (that's right, byu beat oklahoma, booyah!), visiting the ever delicious Dairy Keen of Heber (chocolate peanut butter shake is all I have to say), and completing my application video (my star debut as a teacher. yikes). Sara came down for the weekend and joined in on the festivities as well, so that was an added bonus. Now that I'm back to school today, I've managed to waste time making 3 trips to the bookstore, surfing the internet for YA lit novels to read for my class, and cleaning almost my entire apartment. Why yes, I could be reading one of the three dozen books I'm required to read this semester, but now I'm blogging instead. Just don't be surprised when I disappear under a rock...or in this case my pile of lit novels...and don't emerge for the next 3 months. Kill me now.